Over analysing can take you into a spiral downwards. Lately I’ve been following a few psychologists on instagram and listening to audio books on psychology. I have always been interested in human behaviour and what makes people who they are and of course the way my own mind works but I have been asking the wrong question.
I’ve been asking why. Why does this person behave like that, why does that person treat me like the way they do, why did my parents love my brother more than me etc etc. It took me int a spiral of over analysis that felt down right depressing.
I remembered back to a time before my divorce and before I had studied relationship therapy and before my four miscarriages and before I judged myself so harshly. I was just me without expectations or baggage. I remember that waves of euphoria would wash over me for no reason at all. I wanted Shuz* back. (*nickname at the time)
So I asked my cards for some guidance. I thought I might need the help of my goddess, my queen or my femme fatale. The card that came up was flirt with life! Ahhhhhh haaaaaa. I had not been flirting with life I had been over analysing and ruminating. I did not need to understand everything or solve anything or change anyone. I just needed to be in my authentic essence and flit with life.
This card released me from my merry go round of thought patterns that had kept me awake at night. I had the most beautiful flying dream last night and when I fly at night I know my soul is happy and free.
